The Anguish of Love
Tisha b'Av 5767
Kedusha, holiness--and every truly positive
phenomenon in the world--is eternal. A Yom Tov- a religious holiday
is not merely a remembrance of a past miracle or positive event.
It is a celebration of the reshimu, the eternal imprint of the
transcendental event, which is revealed anew on its original
date, every year. The very same force that brought the original
miracle into the world is vividly present on its respective holiday.
Like lovers who celebrate the anniversaries of all their tender
exchanges, several times a year we spend time with the Divine
Presence, delightfully re-living our most romantic moments.
The nature of everything unholy or negative, on the other hand,
is to fade and disappear. And yet, on the day of Tisha bAv,
we fast, afflict ourselves, and mourn events that happened thousands
of years ago. On this day, the First and Second Temples in Jerusalem
were tragically destroyed, and the Jews went into exile. On this
day, circumstances physically forced the lovers apart.
Wounds, however, heal. Yes, it is true that throughout the centuries
our wounds have been reawakened on the very day of the Ninth
of Av--for example, with the Expulsion from Spain in 1492. Yes,
in that sense, the Ninth of Av is a bad day. Nonetheless,
so many centuries after the destruction of the Temple, there
really should be no negative reshimu lingering on this day. Negativity
does not have such staying power. What, then, is the connection
between our fasting and the destruction of the Temple?
REDEEMING FACTOR
Human beings tend to turn outwards in times of joy, and turn
inwards in times of tragedy. Negativity seems to break down our
egoic resistance to the experience of the Transcendent. Tragedy
and anguish, even more than joy, tend to bring people into spiritual
introspection and self-evaluation.
Without denying the great tragedies of Tisha bAv, there
was a redeeming factor: the people who lived through these events
were shaken out of their spiritual complacency. They were shaken
to their core, and powerfully motivated to make teshuvah--to
return to the depths of their true selves. This is the positive,
holy imprint of those events, and this is why Tisha bAv
is considered a holiday.
Unlike other holidays, of course, this one is celebrated
by fasting and mourning. In order to tap into the days
positive imprint--in order to shake ourselves out of our own
complacency--we must tap into our brokenness. Activities such
as fasting and reciting lamentations sensitize us not only to
the tragedy of the historical exiles, but to our own exile, our
own separation from who we really are. We too can allow Tisha
bAv to motivate us to make teshuvah.
FROM DARKNESS, LIGHT
In order to construct something new, the old must be deconstructed.
In his book, Netzach Yisrael, the Maharal, (Rabbi Yehudah Loew,
1525-1609), explains that the destruction of the Temple was the
extinguishing of an old light, so that the new, greater light
of Moshiach could be revealed. The Midrash says that Moshiach
was, or is, born on Tisha bAv. Such profound
light can only be revealed within darkness.
DIVINE EMBRACE
The Talmud says that when Israel was not aligned with the Beloved
Creator, the two golden Keruvim, or Cherubim, that adorned the
Ark of the Covenant, miraculously turned and faced away from
each other. When Israel was aligned, the Keruvim turned to face
each other. On Tisha bAv, as we were being expelled from
the place where human and Divine kissed, it would seem that the
Keruvim should be facing away. However, as the Romans were ransacking
the Temple, they entered the Holy of Holies. There, they found
the Keruvim enwrapped in an intimate embrace.
Lovers make their most dramatic demonstrations of love when they
must leave each other. At the moment that we were being torn
away, a sign of indestructible love manifested. In the anguish
and passion of this embrace, our Redemption was conceived.
When physical closeness is impossible, the longing of lovers
to connect is intensified. Over time, constant yearning can deepen
into a spiritual maturity. It is precisely within the atmosphere
of exile that Redemption gestates, matures, and is finally born.
KINDNESS IN SEVERITY
The first nine days of the month of Av consist of 216 hours (9
x 24 hrs). 216 is the gematria, the numerical value, of the word
gevurah, severity. It is also the gematria of word
aryeh, lion, and the astrological sign of Av is Leo,
the lion. One of the epithets of the Holy Temple is Aryeh, referring
to the leonine fire that consumed the sacred offerings. All this
suggests that during the Nine Days leading up to Tisha bAv,
great severity manifests in relation to the Temple.
Looking deeper, however, 216 is three times the numerical value
of the word chesed, or Divine kindness (72). This tells us there
is deep chesed in gevurah, and gevurah in deep chesed. The passionate
lovers of Hashem consider it a great kindness when
they are reminded of their Beloved--even when, in their anguished
yearning, its impossible eat or drink.
May we merit to see our longing fulfilled!
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